Lovely

Oh I'm off to see a new life...

You can think that nothing is going right, and is only going to get worse. And then you find yourself a hero amidst the endless crowd of people with two eyes constantly blind to the rest of the world. I'm glad that there are some people who still care about others, and have the heart to want to help. It makes me think that there are some great things to enjoy in this life. It's been some time since there has been anything really worth while.

I have decided that my current state has gotten to the point where I almost feel physically sick when I think about how I feel. I can't stand how I feel and especially why I have no idea why I am feeling this way. Nothing like realizing that if you don't leave a room immediately for some sanctuary you are going to burst into tears. And its completely random. Thank you wangers, you have served many a purpose so far this year.

I apologize to all if I have been in any way annoying or depressing to be around lately. I am determined to change that as of now. But I still offer my regret that I have been acting like such a complete loser. There is a very intelligent woman who announced today that there are definately some things that are worth being happy for. Ever since I first opened my eyes I swear that I wanted to be on the stage. And when I saw someone amazing performing and I could see the excitement and love and utter joy for what they are doing, it made me want to be there even more. Thank you Doreen for reminding me why I chose this path. And why I plan to stick to this path. For now I understand that I'll be walking it alone. But I can deal with that, because I know that theres a beautiful emerald city waiting for me around the corner. And nothing can stop me from getting there.

posted by Leah Wilburn @ 10:20 PM