Lovely

Absolutely Ridiculous

pain: An unpleasant sensation occurring in varying degrees of severity as a consequence of
injury, disease, or emotional disorder.
suffer: To feel pain or distress ;To tolerate or endure evil, injury, pain, or death
cry: To sob or shed tears because of grief, sorrow, or pain; weep.
love: Out of compassion; with no thought for a reward
understand: To have understanding, knowledge, or comprehension.

I'll never get that last one. I don't think that I ever will. And I can't stop killing myself because of it. Get out of my head and out of my life. I hate all the thoughts in my head. And in my life. I don't have any problems. I am not dying. I am not in poverty. I haven't lost anyone dear to me. Yet why doesn't it stop?

Btw, please stop reading my blogs. They are not happy. They are not sensible. I'm done with them. I'm done with trying to understand. I don't want sympathy. I don't want help. I don't deserve anything. My blogs are an outlet for everything ridiculous in my head. Tomorrow it will probably be something completely different. That's all. Why bother to post? Its my thought outlet, and by being public that means they're mostly censored.
ha, this is a perfect example. Within the time it took me to write, I am now better. Welcome back calm Leah. Goodnight.

posted by Leah Wilburn @ 9:23 PM