Lovely

A crumb in the bottom of a big brown freezer box

Week: Long, painful, depressing, odd. Yes, that about sums it up. Many of those terms can be doubled up on many different things too. Yikes. Let's just say mood swing-ey. Great, menopause at the age of 18. Oh Happy Day...
Worries from the Mind of Leah:
#1: I am deaf. I guess I always have been. Okay, not completely true. I have decent hearing, but I can zone out into other worlds in a split second. And it may take a couple "Leah!'s" to get me out of it. But I always come back. So no worries there. For the time being
#2: Finally starting to discover where I stand with the THAR republic. And that is at the bottom
#3: I am a stupid -
#4: selfish -
#5: childish -
#6: imbecile.
#7: Selfish should be mentioned twice, because I really am that terrible.
#8 :I am worried about what I am going to do this summer
#9: I really am getting nervous about that Loreal job. I know that it's a long shot, but I'm an idiot and got my hopes up. eep. Well, the fingers are crossed anyway.
#10 I am worried how I stay marks wise in all of my classes
#11: I am worried about what I am doing to do for the rest of my life
and the biggest thing running through this annoying girls head...
# 12......shouldn't even be mentioned because it's so stupid. But then again Tiana agreed with me, so it's nice knowing that I am not the only one in this boat. But I am really really fricken lonely. Yet where the hell do I meet someone? School? Definitely not. A bar/club? hah, that's an even bigger NO. So again, where the hell do I meet someone? Tiana (I know that you'll never read this but oh well) we honestly do need to have another serious discussion about this and figure out some options. I never thought that I would ever say that I missed dating. I was so happy to be free. But I suddenly became too free. Now I couldn't pick up a guy if my life depended on it. I hate spring time and all you fucken love birds. Go away, you depress me.
#13: I hate ridiculous hidden meanings and people who are blind. In more ways than one. I can't stand seeing it anymore, it's absolutely ripping me apart. Heart and soul.

There's my Happy Blog. I was even going to add how excited I am to go out this weekend, because I have wanted to go dancing since.. well since forever because that was the last time I went dancing. But now my fav people are ditching. yay.....

posted by Leah Wilburn @ 11:03 PM