Lovely

Reality Check

So I definately had the best day with some amazing friends of mine on Sat. Got up early and did some chores for mom. Brownie points with family, yay! Then off to apartment because I officially have the keys now!!!!!!!!!!! (more about that later on) then mom stops by. then to rachels. from rachels (jay already there) to jens. then to ikea. lots of shopping at ikea woo woo!! spend money but not to much. got blinds and cups.. I'm exciting. then food mmm. then to evans (someone I don't know) to check out mohawk. then to mall. waaaaaaaaaaaaay to much monies spent but got a few clothes (favorite shopping buddies of life!!) then to dinner for erin and nicoles b-day. lots of fun and laughs. then to Leahs (thats me!!) apartment (!!!) to drop off ikea stuff and show friends the place. ended up talking and laughing and taking pics for a long time. man oh man we are crazy kids but it was such a blast (I promise that I'll send you guys those pics asap) then home (long drive...zzzzz) kidding! I didn't actually sleep drive. But it was such a good night, made me really really happy.

On that note, I have found that being in the city with friends (and at my place) is just making me smile so much. But as soon as I go home it isn't like that. I think that the thought of living on my own (with my Troopa!) is so close to reality that it is taunting me. I want to start now but still have to wait two more months. ack, it is slowly killing me i think. hopes that things stay on a decent level of tension rather then exploding. whew breathe.. only two months and 2 (?) days to go...

I have a dillema. I have this secret. But there is another secret that is coming up now. And I am really feeling torn. Plus I also am afraid that I am setting myslf up for some major dissapointment from both secrets. And that is because I trust believe and imagine to much. Damn my overactive imagination! damn it to hell.

To go along with that, I once again set myself up for dissapointment. But this one I am taking into my own hands. But that just isn't good enough for me. Not anymore.

All in all I am a happy girl. Lovin' the sun. Missin' my wife. Designin' a dream...

posted by Leah Wilburn @ 7:27 PM