Lovely

Starting From Scratch

A white canvas newly unwrapped. This summer is winding down and I am on the brink of a new year. Well the school year anyway. My first year of college completely done. I am learning to live on my own and I am for once completely and truly happy. I could tell you many things that I wish for and many that I wish hadn't happened. My life is no where near perfect and that is exactly how it should stay.
This past year, summer included, has been completely ripe with trials and tests. And tears and strain and laughter and heartache and so many other emotions that it was ridiculous. But all worth it because I have never felt that I have learned so much in such a short amount of time. I have learned that friends come and go but the true ones are always loving you even if from a distance. I have learned that families hate you because they really do love you, no matter how many times they seem to be holding you down. My family has always protected me and yet been the wind in which I have been carried to countless dreams and experiences.
So many stories and so little time to tell. That is because I really should have been in bed at least an hour or so ago. But distractions always seem to be abundant. Beautifully abundant.
To make an incredibly long and unfinished story short, I am starting afresh. From scratch. I will not longer be second tree from the right. Being fourth bellhop from the left helped me to realize myself there. No longer will I be the lonely lady feeling sorry for myself. If you close off your heart then you can never let a second chance help to heal that pain. I am so happy to be where I am and who I am right now. As I told this to my beautiful roommate tonight while standing in the kitchen beaming she's replies "I haven't heard you say that in such a long time". And I haven't felt like this is such a long time. All round anyway. This girl is ready to live. But for now, I'm ready to sleep my way to a new school year.... at 8:00 in the morning.

p.s. This newest blog is still currently under construction as many of you will be able to tell. But changes will be coming whenever I find the time to confront this demonic thing they call the blogger template. Fingers crossed that I come out alive.

posted by Leah Wilburn @ 11:25 PM