Lovely

I am an Actor

I remember things too. But it's too bad that I am the only one who remembers them. I feel sad right now. I don't really have a reason to be. But I am. And angry. And ashamed for feeling angry. I don't think that I should actually be posting about any of this because it might lead to questions that I am not going to answer. Actually, I don't know if I could even answer them if I did want to say it to you. There is more then one you by the way. Only one me. But I don't get a "you". That's a pity. I say that in the show. That's a pity. Said by an angel trying to comfort a priest against feeling ashamed for not helping and protecting the people that he is supposed to be there for. It is quite the evil angel. I like playing the angel. I also like my wings. Well, I will once they are fixed. Point is, how can people be an angel on the outside and so rotten on the inside? I would think that that sugar coating wouldn't be able to hold up because of the empty shell that is within. That is wrong. I don't actually mean that. That's very wrong in fact. But I am still not happy. Right now. I want to cry. Tears of what though? I miss you. Another you. But a same you too. Except that you don't. Miss me. That makes me upset. I wish I knew what was going on. But then I can't if I'm not told. And I can't feel better if I don't talk about things. Of course, physically to get better I should not be talking. But that is something entirely different.

Gill leaves next week. Forever. A year is forever. That definately makes me want to cry. I am infact. I can't help it. I love you so much. Don't forget me. I will never forget you.

For now, I am going to be a actor. They can hide things.

posted by Leah Wilburn @ 2:21 AM