I am Loving.. and Loved
News of the week: people are dying.
Or they have died. Just in Stony Plain over the last month or so, there have been many losses that I have found out about. Just with people that I knew. And it got me to thinking about all of the people that I have left behind. I wish that I had been a better friend to those still there. I miss so many of them. But life happens right?
Crystals funeral is today, but I have rehearsal. Normally I would go and miss rehearsal but I am not sure how close I was with her. Not really, but I did know her. But then I realized that I have never gone to a funeral other then my grandfathers. I have had people that I have known die and yet I've never gone. I don't understand why. I guess I feel like I don't belong because I wasn’t that close with them and I can't help feeling like it should be for those who are truly in mourning. I don't know. When I die, I want to have everyone there. I'll have reversed seats for my family and close friends, but I want everyone to come. So why do I feel awkward about going to someone else’s? Unsolved mystery. But I do want to stay that I am so sorry that this did happen. To the family and friends of Gardner, Cust, Elsie and Sharpe, I send my sincerest condolences and please Rest in Peace you all.
I am loved and I love so much. There are so many people who mean so much to me and I don't know what I would do if I lost someone that I was incredibly close with. So this email is to say to everyone, I love you so much. I am who I am because I met you and I thank you for that. You should all know who you are. Please take care, I pray for your safety each day. It is the strongest favor that I could ever ask of you. I love you all too much.
For now, I'm going to someone else I love.
I am a Designer Still
I designed my new bedroom and it looks really great. I started and then got addicted and measured almost everything in the apartment and put it to scale and cut out little pictures and I felt so happy. I love projects. I sure haven't lost the designer in me. You never know, maybe I'll pick that up again sometime. But only if I do it on TV. I'm still a performer through and through.
Side note: I haven't exactly posted in a while but if you understand the program than you understand why. Infact, this post is coming on a dinner break between rehearsals for the next show already.
On the Town went over so fantastically. It felt really good to finally be on the Haar Stage. But at the same time, I really found myself in this show. And I am not sure if it is such a good thing. Because I realized how much I missed acting. And singing. I came into this program knowing how to sing and act reasonaably. Dance was unknown territory. But I rose to the challenge and ended up cast one of biggest roles ever in a huge dance heavy show. And I loved every minute of it but it was very easy to put that show behind me. The one that I wish I could bring back was Mad Forest. Because I got to act. And I loved doing it. We are doing Nine now and I love to sing so that is awesome, but I still don't get to do very much right now. Typical actor, always wanting more. But I really really know that I am an actor. Before everything else. I love being put to that challenge. Except when I lose my voice but that is a different story. Anyway, I have no time to write all of the things that I wish that I could express but in short, I have decided that I am just a musical theatre performer. I love doing it, but I love acting first and foremost. Musicals are just a side thing. But anyway, you work where you can get it. So I think that I am going to try out my options for the Fringe before I commit to doing yet another show with Tim. But we'll see.
For everyone in On The Town, I love you all and it was such a great show. We did it!!!
So that is my closing show speech, for now I am taking my instant mashed potatoes back to rehearsal before I'm late.
I am Enjoying my Sunday
Well we are finally done. not that that is sa great thing, but it certainly was an incredibly memorable thing. We had a fantastic run and it was so great to be able to share this great experiance with so many people that we know and love. I am so thankful for all of the people that came out to support us, it meant the world.
So its the first day off in what seems like forever and we get to see a show and enjoy brunch with a new found family. Yay good day. I guess we are supposed to eat now so I promise to post again in the near future.
To the entire cast, I love you all. We'll always carry a little bit of New York in our Hearts!
For now, hot food and a soul stealing show. I can't wait.
