The Power You're Supplying - It's Electrifying!!
So I am bored yet again with my blog. Well not bored, but I always want to change it. I guess I want to change it with my mood. When I am depressed or well something along those lines, I want it to be all dark and dreary. But then sometimes I want it to be bright and happy. Or if I am in some philosophical style mood then it should be neutral and in some fancy script. I can't decide. I guess that is just me, I am different every day. egad, 356 different Leah's. I know, I'm scared too...
What has happened lately? Umm, gym hurts me. Had a date and, well dates do not belong on blogs. I will save that for actual conversations. Missed two good friends birthdays and I feel terrible about that. But I still love you guys soo much and hoped that you had a great time none-the-less.
Currently trying to sort out life for next year. Listening to musicals again (I swear, for a few months I was almost back to being a real person...) because well I don't know anything good. I need to study it up. Still looking for furniture for my apartment and even building some of my own (don't worry Dee, it's for my room, you don't have to worry about living with my interesting creations). Also trying to find cheap power. As Jay and I realized, today we rely so much on power it's almost ridiculous. "It's okay, I don't need TV, I'll just listen to some music...umm I'll go on the computer.. ah, maybe grab a snack from the fridge... yeah, we're reliant alright."
Quick shout out to Ali, Rachel and Brennan. Thank you so much for being amazing. It really made my day(s). Nothing beats real friends. Love and hugs to all!!!
Coconuts rehearsals start soon. Excited. Canada Day comes even sooner. Uber excited. For now, it's time to watch a movie. (Still exciting but not as much as Canada Day)
Lunch Break
Well that's what I am on now so it seemed an appropriate title. Ack, appropriate just doesn't look right to me... going crazy.
Onto other things. Life has passed by and events with them. But I'm not going to go into detail. Trying to keep up with going to the gym, and helping that by eating healthy. Too bad I just love chocolate too much.
Went to school to find some music for next year. Which I did, but not enough and I am annoyed because I need to hear it, I can't just look and see that its a good song. And I don't play piano worth a dime either so that it's going to help me. But I am frustrated because I refuse to go back next year unprepared. Hello Virgo in me but I like to be organized and write lists and all that junk. And I can't stand flying by the seat of my pants (at least professionally) Also, I want to find the best stuff because I also refuse to fall back into the shadows like last year. This year is going to be different. I am not settling for "second tree from the left" anymore.
In other thoughts, I still can't wait to move into my apartment, especially now that we have a microwave... thats big enough to cook small children. Dee, I say that we just keep to using them for measuring sticks. Somehow the smell doesn't sound too pleasing...
And finally the reason that I am writing this blog right now is because it wasn't a busy morning so I had a lot of time to think and revel on what I have been doing this summer. And just about some things that have been bugging me in general. And that is how I am perceived by so many of my "friends". I don't using the quotations to assume that they are not my friends, but I have discovered how I never fit in anywhere. To school friends, I'm the hick and therefore a loser. To old friends, I'm artsy and therefore am odd . To the partying friends, I'm unapproachable because..well I don't know really. It's annoying me. I love everyone but I can't help always feeling left out of something. Or knowing that I am being made fun of for being the person that I am. I have been slightly hurt over some of those types of things and call me sensitive or whatever, but hey I am my own person. Take me or leave me because you are not going to find anyone else like me. Not anytime or anywhere. I am nice to my friends and want to see all of them all the time. But when jokes are being made at my expense because I was nice enough to invite people to go out, or just to hang out with me pisses me off. Because why come if you don't want to be there, or with me. I'd rather someone just say "Hey, I don't want to." Okay sure that sucks because then I don't get to see my friends, or do the things that I want to do. Its fucked up. But in the long run its less painful then finding out that I am being made fun of for having a good time.
I had hoped that this would get a lot of things off my chest, but now I am just pissed off. This is why I rarely voice anything. Stuff that really bothers me anyway. But then I made a vow to stop that. Maybe I'll calm down later. For now, it's back to work.
.... it was you
Wow, the summer comes and you would think that I would have all the time in the world to post a blog. But I definitely seem to never get around to it. That and my computer has been down for the past couple weeks or something like that. I honestly don't even know what has all happened since I last posted, but I'm sure that good things did happen. And bad. Maybe. I dunno. Not really sure... ack
Friday I went to see Mr and Mrs Smith. You people have to understand that I have literally been counting down the days until this movie opens!! Oh god! So Gill and I get to the theatre and guess what?!?! Sold out!!! Theeeeen we realize we looked at the 7:15, and it was definitely 7:35. So yay for few seats left at 7:45. Still had awesome seats. After two things of cheese fries (I tell you Gill, they are amazing!! grr) and a million ours of previews and COMMERCIALS (honestly, I don't see how they can get away with that!!!) we finally get to watch the long awaited orgasm of an action flick. Because really, that movie just has HOT written all over it. And in it. And in the surrounding vicinity. good lord, I was pleased. For those of you who know of my celebrity love interest, you'll understand ; ) That movie was sooo good. Well written, well played, and had the entire theatre laughing and gasping sooo effin loud. It was amazing.
So Sat I finally get a hold of city friends who actually want to do something with me (single tear slowly rolls down cheek..) and have super fun night with them. Laughs at Moxies with Jay, Kirby and Paul, vibrating booth seats, and even more laughs watching Jay get hit on. (Jay Jay he's our man if he can't do it..... [I'll let you all fill in the blank ;) ] ) (Holy crap waaaaaaaay for many brackets here) Just jokes luv, she even did it twice, it was awesome!!! Anyway, back to cars to head to the movie theatre to watch Mr and Mrs Smith AGAIN! (honestly, not like I was complaining, I was quite willing...that sounded dirty) Park, run to stairs, and just as doors close behind we find we are in the creepiest stairwell of life just waiting for a new rape victim and we are all looking like fresh meat. sooo creepy. but we continue, only to find now that one of the doors are opened. We are freaking locked inside. Kirby and I were laughing so hard that we could walk while Paul and Jay frantically run up and down trying almost every bloody door. FINALLY the basement one was open and though we had no clue where we were, we were out of the rape zone... eep. okay, run to elevator, laugh even more (I have new socks on) and run to theatre. Yay for popcorn (ugg) and super awesome movie with super awesome friends. Oh, and a hip check to Kirby (I am sorry love but no one can about beat a hockey-loving-country-girl with a hipcheck. It just doesn't work like that)
I was hoping for some unreal abs today to go with the mountainous tons of laughing this weekend. but to no avail. I guess the popcorn probably cancelled that out. boo-urns
I am still setting myself up for disappointment. In a different way this time. But at least I know it. So then again it probably would be that bad. Stupid head. Oh well, I am not going to sit back and take it anymore.
Still missing my wife, and a lot of my friends too. I miss people. And being active. Will someone kick my ass please?!?!?
(omg, the spell check for Moxies tried to change it to Moses. Just thought I'd let you know)
