A man sees in the world what he carries in his heart - "Faust"
Happy Easter to All
Goodbye Long Weekend, it was fun while it lasted. Not that it was really much of a long weekend considering we have to be at school tomorrow, but at the same time we never get full weekends, so this felt like a lifetime.
I was so happy that I went out last night, and even more so that other people came out. I had a blast, it was awesome. Yay to drinking with friends. Thats right I said friends, because I enjoyed the company of almost everyone there.
So great night with fun people, actually getting most of my english essay done, kind of sort of clean room, the weather is warming up, rehearsals are so much fun.... Good Lord, there is nothing to complain about. YAY!!!
(if I get one comment from someone about something that I should be bitching about... then your are going to die. Yes, I'm thinking of you Jay - you better watch your back boyle)
So I don't actually know if I am signed up for Vocal Masques tomorrow, because I know that I didn't sign myself up. Eeep. Happy being there at 10 just in case. But it should be fun. I should clean out my locker anyway. Not that any of you really care. But I told you none the less.
I must say that I am impressed at the widespread attraction of Dutch Blitz, but at the same time I'm not complaining because it is an excellent stress relief. I realized that playing that long time on friday completely took my mind off of my vocal jury. It was awesome. So therefore I have just purchased my own Dutch Blitz. Better get ready bitches!!!
(p.s. Joel I don't know what is happening with your blog - it says that you have no comments, but you actually have four. Just in case you thought that no one had posted, we have. love and hugs big brother)
Alumni Night - forever and always
I forgot how much I misses singing with the old choir again. Being back in the old choir room. Shifting around on squeaky risers. Laughing at our mistakes and having the piano keys slammed on to shut us up. Aaahhh the memories. Tonight was awesome. Okay, so technically we were not perfect but this was a year, sometime two that I have had to forget these songs. Oh well, it was still a blast. Always is but this is the first time that I was the alumni. I felt old.
"Don't let your mom go down on me-ee!"
so the cast list went up on Monday. Holy freaking hell big son-of-a-bitch shocker! That was defiantly out of the blue. Of course, it wasn't meant to be as good as it sounded, but I'm still excited and thrilled nonetheless. Its not like I don't have anything to do. yay for being in almost every company section...
Anyway, it's the long weekend now and I am so thrilled. Way to end it on a good note. Decent test in P.A. And I thought that my vocal jury went pretty well. Maybe not perfect, but I love that song and sang it almost the best that I could. yay for me. For once.
Jeff, it was crazy actually getting to see you today, but so worth it. I miss you so much too, but we will get some hang out time in. Ritual date at Tim's? Love you babe! Cross my heart.
time for bed now. I am a sleepy girl. mmm, apple cider, a movie, sweats and my own bed. What a most perfect combination. Night night.
Amazing Machine... complete with brand new wings and a big fucking engine
Wow, it feels like forever since I have made a good blog entry. I almost don't know what to say. The last week or so has been so incredibly intense. With the play mainly of course, but it seems like lots of other things having been coming up as well and its getting crazy. The week in a glance would almost be a novel-style blog so we'll talk in highlights.
Well, we discovered what a success our bi-plane turned out to be. Thank you to Kenneth Brown for not creating a play but an entire fricken jet! I'll never forget it. Having the audience was just too good to be true. I loved every second of it and really don't want to let it go. Yes, I am wanking because I loved playing Sasha, but also because of the play as a whole. It was such an amazing experience, I learned soo much. Yay to everyone who performed this week I toast you all. In truth I really did. Last night I probably had a drink for everyone of you... ugg.
Also discovered who my true friends are. And am still debating about others. It's saddening that there is more than one, but it's true. Goodbye to you, I am through picking up random pieces of a friendship. I will no longer be taken for granted. Not that you even need me anymore. So no tears, just walk away. For others, I'm just confused. You have a night where you think that everything was saved and now I just don't know. Maybe I'm just crazy.
As a person and performer all around I have found a new respect for myself. This sounds so bad but I'm saying it anyway. I was proud of my performance in Wild Honey, even though it took me forever to pick it up. And no matter what happened in the end, I was proud of my movement project too. And that is important to me because I had such a problem with that class before and having Dave tell me that he enjoyed my piece was a great breath of fresh air. It feels like things are going well all around. I love life for the most part, even if the weather is ugly and depressing.
I can't say that I feel perfect right now, but I feel confident. That is all I can use to describe it. Confident. (okay except for in ballet, that can just kiss my incapable-of-turning-out ass... man I suck at that) But life goes on and I want to get the most that I can out of the last two months and less that I have left at G-Mac.
This week in a blog
Well hello crazy super intense rehearsal tonight. yikes! I wasn't the only one with tears though. I love you Ali. You are fantastic. Well I was really excited to blog on a computer not in the library, but now that I am here, its not so enticing anymore. I'm at Ash's because I have no home. Coles last night, Ash's tonight, and ... elsewhere tomorrow. Yay for truly being a bum. A bum with a car though. So thats at least a little bit better. And I'm not eating out of the garbage. Just a brown box in the freezer at school. There's a difference!!! Anyway, this blog is boring and I am tired. Someone comment and tell me a story or ask me a query. Maybe my response will make the next blog slightly better. Goodnight all. Love and hugs.
p.s. Everyone in the world better come out next Sat. @ 2:00 in the theatre lab for the first performance of Wild Honey. Chekhov plays will be running twice sat and sun but that slot is MY SLOT!! haha, my slot... dirty. riiight.
Your Call
Got up. Packed. Wrote note. Left. At school by 7:00. Run around city. Bomb midterm. Have coffee with friends. Leave friends to check mail. Unhappy email. Find friend. Walk with friend. Have good walk/talk in great sunshine (finally). To rehearsal! Long. But progressing. Scared shitless. Makes scene better. Bored at school with friend. Leave school. Still bored. Eat. Get soul hurt. Deserve it. Wander city. Have coffee. Have coffee bought for me?!?!? Meet other friends. To show. Watch show. Haha. Tear. Haha. Over. Ditch. Shatter. Long talk in parkade. Longer talk in car. Silence. Talking continues. Silence. And more talking.
I am emotionally torn apart. I have no idea what to feel. Do I deny self? No. Yes and No. Because I want two things. One a hell of a lot more then the other. Actually, I don't even want one. Maybe my heart says so, but I know that it's no good. The first one though, I want more than life. So therefore no, because I'm not going to deny what's most important to me. Nothing can change that. I don't want anything to change that, I don't know how I could handle it. No running away, I will follow. I wouldn't be able to survive without my sanity. So therefore, I will save it anyway that I can. I can't help it. I'd apologize for caring so much, but I like and want to. I want to help. And always be here. I'm an idiot, a complete fool. Bu I do have a heart at least.
I had such a great week. I don't want anything to change.
Arrrr - Looks Like We Be Sailin the High Sea's at Dawn....
I think that I should post at school more often. I am in a great mood which means no negative blog for this girl today. YAY!! Hope everyone likes the new blog format, it should be a lot better, but for some reason it hates me and the whole sidebar with my links and everything is invisible. Or something along those lines. Anyway, yay for a great week. AMAZING, though intense rehearsals and a few great laughs. It's definately been a fantastic week so far. Theory midterm is done (though we will still have to do ear training..yay for that) But the bestest news ever to cancel out that crappy-ness... THE SUN IS OUT BABY!!! Me and the sun is like peanut butter chocolate chip and banana sandwiches.. you just get us apart... and when left out the bananas get all brown and mushy and then you have to much and get sick and then never want another sandwich again... maybe a better analogy was needed here. Meh, no time must get to rehearsals soon. More updates later during weekend, when I have time to blog on a comp of my own.
Love and hugs, your sunkissed Whiskey Girl
p.s. glad to have ye back cap'n ;)
